Dazed and Confused
That would be a fitting description of me right now. Ok, and slightly pissed too.
I just can't, for some reason, manage to get myself all psyched out about looking for a job. I AM actively looking for a job, I think maybe that didn't come out right. I go on interviews. I send in my resume hither and yon. I go on more interviews. I DO get my hopes up.... and then get them dashed. I hear positive, very positive feedback from the lady at the employment agency after my interviews.
SO WHY THE HELL AM I STILL WITHOUT A DAMN JOB?????
Now, I can't even get excited about an upcoming interview, cause to me, it's just ANOTHER ONE. Maybe I'm trying subconciously to not get even more down about my current situation? I don't know.
Also? Z is getting rather hostile and generally pissed about me not working. Ok, maybe highly irritated? Either way, I tried explaining to him how I feel, but he doesn't want to hear it. Just gets real short and snarls and snaps, then denies that he's done it. Grrrrrrr.
Look. I get all gussied up in a suit that makes me feel good so that I can walk in with confidence. I show up, impeccacably groomed (as if I would do otherwise) and I do my best to knock their socks off. Actually, I give good interview. I do my best and when I walk out of the office, I know that I couldn't have done any better. I am confident with my interview performance. And then I wait.... and wait.... and wait.
But do I hop up and down like the Enegizer Bunny? Um, no. ANd THIS pisses Z off. I asked him "You want me to do cartwheels cause I have an interview? Getting an interview appointment is the easy part."
I'm NOT gonna go apeshit and get my hopes up. No way.
I have another interview tomorrow afternoon. It's funny. I interviewed with them LAST YEAR when I was jobless also. Actually, they almost hired me last year apparently. It was between me and another lady. They hired her. It seems she has gone and gotten pregnant, is due anytime and doesn't want to work after the baby comes, so the job is open again. Well, well, well. Isn't life funny? I wonder if the interviewer will remember me. We shall see.
You know what is just freaking great? I've developed my PMS zit and it's so damn big. I've done everything I can to make it go away. Retin A, Alpha Hydrox. Hot compresses. Cold compresses. You name it. It is very very angry looking and big. I never get them like this. This totally blows.
Power suit? Check! Spare Resume? Check! Reference Letters? Check!! Big volcano zit? CHECK!!!!!
Come on ladies! Don'tcha have any quickie home remedy suggestions for me? This might be beyond even MY makeup application capabilities. (and that's saying something all right!)